Dont Cry Dad

I never said and showed you that how much i love you, dad..
When i was a child, you werent in our house, i always worried for you.. Where was my dad?
I always knew that you understood when you were with us, what was going on with you!!
You sometimes came at home, gave many chocolate boxes and toys me and my brother ..We were happy but we werent!! Where was our dad?
Do you remember, when i hugged you first time was the new year.. You said to me 'make a wish'.. You were there, dad.
I never counted how many years you werent there!!
My mum was always so sad, my sisters and brothers as well..
Suddenly you suffered from a serious illness.. We were always with you..
It was unbelievable that you came with your regrets in the house
Welcomed Dad, missed a lot..
You have stayed with us !!..
But it was a bit late dad, because i had to go to get my wish..
You never worried for me from faraway..Thats why i never worried for you anymore..
I lost my lovers who were you and mum because was angry to you and mum..
You never know that how many days i cried for you and mum.. Where was my family!!
I tried to forget my loneliness with a lot of boyfriends..You just counted my boyfriends..
I am use to be alone..It makes me so strong, Dad..
You never asked how i am! But i knew that you asked a lot of questions yourself about me.
And again the time had been changed..
You really came to live and share with us forever because of getting older and seeing the end..!
Forget it, please.. Lovingly Welcome Dad!! Always love you..
Unfortunately i know dad, it was a bit late again because your sons and daughters werent there..
Please dont be sad..Its just half life for us.
Please dont worry about us, we are ok.
Please dont regret and ask any questions for the past..just past, not future..
Please dont cry dad,it's just the unlived life with you and mum for me
Please dont cry,dont cry.. it burns my heart..There isnt any guilty, just destiny..
Please dont cry..You are still my lovely dad..
Please dont cry, i never seen you like that.. try to forget..

I am coming,Dad..Do you feel me? Actually, I havent gone anywhere.. Your little daughter is still there for you who is making a wish again,dad.. We are just ringing up the curtain.
I loved you whatever and please dont get any doubt because i'll always love you..
And you'll see that i'll say and show many times how much i love you..

Please dont cry dad, dont cry..It burns me!

** Its a true story and for my dad who named Kemal Koc..

My Dream

Avril Lavigne - My Dream

Please tell me how the stars go by
cause people always tend to lie
guess they must have been trouble makers
Probly cause they`re always a mess
and they always are a pest
It`s always gonna be the same

Always wore my makup
never beat the boys up
grew up in a 10,000 population town
My friend made money by cutting grass
and I knew that it wouldn`t last
all in a large state Nevada

You know I always sleep throughout the daytime
and i say to myself
this is where i belong forever
in my arms this day this night

Can`t help it if I go in a gaze
My head turns out the other way
I may turn off and go in a great dream
in this world my friends can fly
and no-one will ever die
would someone please and not regret i`m often getting in my dreams

I never spend more than an hour
climbing up the eiftle tower
it always takes 5 hours to get back down
So i will go a zillion miles
so it may take a friggen while
there`s nothing better to do anyway


Take deep breaths
breathe it out
get back up
but don`t fall down
don`t get caught
get out of the house

Can`t help it if I go in a gaze
my head turns out the other way
i may turn off and go in a great dream
in this world my friends can fly-a

Softly an explanation from a Brokenhearted

It's time for you to know the truth and cast your cares away.

I'm so sorry. It took too long to let you know that it's alright because they mean nothing anyway. You'll say that you're so sorry! Unhappy is all i get, get used to it.It's never easy to see the sun when you're locked up in this pretty plaster cage. She says that she would love to feel alive again. This loneliness necessitates her void.

She's had enough of being down and it seems that everything that she has heard, it's everything that makes her cry.This is the way that i can't describe anything i've felt for awhile, it's just a little too much to take.

Enough with everyone else has words, it's just a sign that nothing makes sense to me. This was my last chance... I had cut you just to watch you bleed. It's the only way to make you see that you were never there for me, you wont never be there for me.

She is softly telling you everything; She knew that you didn't care, break her heart again, smile and prepare for all the words. She screams and give her a reason, anything but silence or the truth. She'll never feel you.

Remember How i held you for the lonely nights you know we shared? And remember how you never cared about anything? Now i'm dead for you, so bury me instead.

There's no point in breathing. How can you find reason to move on the surface?

It goes again: Put on that deserving tone and don't forget that this was a big fault. It's breathing down your neck; you know you've got to let this go. You're such a wreck, and now it starts to show.Because where you were is where you'll be: always wanting everything. it's all the same that you can't ignore because all you want is just to be more.

Consider this: He was moving on while she was busy trying to pass the time between the previous and next nervous breakdown. The girl had given up the love of her life. And all the time that she was giving up slowly. He didn't notice when she ran away.

There's a bitter cold chill in the air: It's haunting every breath we take. The hint of alcohol and nicotine, It keeps us warm inside. All your fashion sense aware, the sweaters unfold themselves. We are all alone, but we're better off by ourselves thats why go on your way, stay away from me.

Lost !!!

My blog followers can be suprised because i accidently lost all my datas..I am in mourning for a short time!!!
You can ask me that how did i do but it just had an accident..
Good or bad, dont know but i had written during two years(from 2006) and now having zero..
Its a strange feeling but can it be a begining !!!

See you soon