Sunday, 24 May 2009
Ugly
If you're ugly, I'm ugly too
In your eyes the sky's a different blue
If you could see yourself like others do
You'd wish you were as beautiful as you
And I wish I was a camera sometimes
So, I could take your picture with my mind
Put it in a frame for you to see
How beautiful you really are to me
Ugly, Ugly
All of us just feel like that somedays
Ain't no rainbow in the sky
When you feel U.G.L.Y.
And that's ugly
Ugly, Ugly
All of us just feel like that somedays
Ain't no rainbow in the sky
When you feel U.G.L.Y.
And that's ugly, ugly
All of us just feel like that somedays
Ain't no cure that you can buy
When you feel U.G.L.Y.
And that's ugly
So, if you're ugly, I'm ugly too
If you're a nut, then I must be a screw
If you couls see yourself the way I do
You'd wish you were as beautiful as you
I wish I was as beautiful as you
Its not you

I know it was not you, was just my dream and surely, you will be happy without me.. But i have to forget you with another one because it wasnt ordinary even if you n me were ordinary which made me hopeful to realised was it right one !!
Im unbelivable sorry, even if i think about you..Sorry, very sorry..
This is just life and i have to say goodbye myself in mornings again without you..
Goodbye
I may never see you again
Our paths may be crossed
But im going on my way
I have loved talking with you,
becoming your friend
Hope to see you again one day
May God smile on you
May all your days be blessed
Please remember me
Goodbye
PS :Everyone can guess that person is me but not true, just everybody' past which is mine as well..
Saturday, 23 May 2009
Ondan Uzakken Hep 1seyler Eksik

Saniyorum ki hep yitiriyoruz birilerini, birseyleri ve yerine yenilerini koymak cabasinda ugrasirken ozlem sellerinde kavrulmak ne aci..
Ne eskisi yenisi gibi nede yenisi eskiye benzer ve boylece degisim surecinde bulurken kendimizi bazi seyler ya guzel yada derinden bir sizi..
Kaldirmak istiyorum kadehimi, tum yitirilenlere ve kendime
Hersey guzel olacak sanaraktan, Onlardan uzak, kendimden uzak, icimde ufaktan 1 sanci..
Saturday, 2 May 2009
Umudunu Arayan Kadin

Mutluluk ile mutsuzluk arasinda surekli sirkilasyon yasayan 1 ailenin kiziydi, annesinin ikinci evliligi sonrasi dunyaya gelmis.. Hatirladigi seylerden anliyorum ki, cok neseli ve asi 1 genc kizdi ve 1 o kadarda fedakar... Annesine olan duskunlugunu her ondan bahsedisinde anlamak mumkundu.. Bircok kisi onla evlenmek istemisti uzun harika saclari, yesil gozleri ve harika fizigi yuzunden oysa hicbirine evet demeyecek kadar cesurdu belkide sebeb annesinin mutsuz evlilikleriydi.. Yasina gore evlilige cok gec kaldigi dusunuldugu 1 zaman diliminde kendinden 4 yas kucuk 1 erkekle evlenmeye karar vermisti.. Ve bu karari kendisi diil annesi almisti ve oda itaat etmisti..
Ve sonra hayati biranda degisti... Evliliginden sonra hicbirsey mutluluk verici olmamisti.. Hayatinda her aldigi nefeste aci verici olaylar yasiyor ama annesi gibi sadece sakin ve sessiz olmayi seciyordu.. Alkoholik 1 kocasi ve surekli kavga cikaran yeni anne-babaya sahip olmustu ve ne yazikki ilk cocugunu dogurmaya hazirlaniyordu... Hayat umduklarindan ote, cok cikmaz yollar sunmustu, o ise sadece annesi gibi olmayi seciyordu... Ben o zamanlar yoktum ama o anlatir bazen ve anlarim ki gercekten cok zordu...
Kac sene mutsuz yasadigini hic sayamadim ama o cok iyi biliyordur en son ne zaman gulumsedigini..
Yillar yillari takip ediyordu, bende bilincimi kazandigimda hatirlarim ki hala mutsuzlar sofrasinda bulurdu kendini.. Nasil 1 dayanma gucune sahipti bu kadin, beni hep hayretlere dusururdu.. Dusunun ki; ac-susuz, yipratilmis, hergun gunes batarken yorgun ve yeni dogacak gune umitsiz.. Hicbir gun ona guzel 1 sey vermemisti sadece dogan cocuklari disinda... Bunlari hatirladikca 1 kadinin icindeki mukemmel dayanma gucunu ve hala umutlarini animsarim.. ve tek ornegim O'dur ve o kadin benim ANNEM'dir, hala hayata bizim icin bagli, hala uzgun, hala mutsuz, hala kuskun, hala kirgin ama hala mukemmel guclu..
Seni cok ozluyorum ANNE..
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
